Almost nothing around here has a rhyme or reason, just a lot of feels from someone who only got "D"s on every poetry unit they were assigned. I can't follow an iambic formula. I don't want to reach for the rhyming dictionary. This is a proud culmination of every single "F" marked on those school assignments. Welcome to the Bad Poetry Shelf! :3
autumn 2024 prompt poetry
A very generous & enthusiastic friend uncovered a prompt challenge for us in fall 2024. Below are my entries!
Stillness
There is an edge
In the air
A crisp chill
That leeches out
The ever-present damp
And leaves crystalline latices
Adorning the treetops and grasses
There is an edge
In the air
That suppresses the life
Inherent in all things
It slows the heartbeat of life
And puts it to a deep slumber
There is an edge
In the air
That most would
Shake and shiver at
And bemoan the loss
Of the warmth and sun of summer
There is an edge
In the air
That I adore
It’s stillness
Marks the cold
That makes the warmth
Sweeter
Swirl
I will always remember
The summer the world crumbled
When empathy died
And my heart grew hard
But I don’t remember it
For the things I lost
I remember the warm smell of summer
A gentle breeze teasing the trees
The hum of the trimmers
As we learned a new skill
I remember that first trim
When I ran hands through your hair
Finding swirls and patterns
That I normally couldn’t see
I will always remember
The summer the world crumbled
When everything was bleak
And I learned to find joy anew
Scissors
Take a blade
A sword
Victorious and useless
Find it a mate
A twin
To match it in eternity
Fashion a hinge
Twine them together
Two becoming one
Repurpose them
From something that ends
To something that makes
Let them fight on
In a battle of beauty
Instead of blood
Volume
If silence
Speaks louder
Than words
I am constantly
Screaming
At the top
Of my
Lungs
Why don’t you hear me?
Perhaps
It is
Time
To start
Screaming
Out loud
Suitcase
I used to dream
Of packing it all away
Into a few boxes and bags
And driving off
Following the pavement river
To whatever terminus it ran
Leaving behind only memories
And the burden of expectation
Grand
Survival is not the grand things
It is no longer a fight
In the woods
For food
Or glory
It is the little things
Waking up and making coffee
Finding joy in a video clip
Soft fur under sleepy fingers
Jokes shared with friends
Finding a shiny rock
A pretty leaf floating past
Survival isn’t grand
It’s not a painting to hang on a wall
Survival is the little things
A thousand thousand tiny things
Pieced into a mosaic
Ever growing on the floor
Harbour
Midnight drives
Down winding roads
Through hills and forest
Following river
To ocean
Quiet music
Rushing wind
Smell of wet wood
Tang of salt
Moon hangs high
Full and bright as sun
Stop to take it in
Hear the waves crash
Breathe with them
As heartbeat slows
Loneliness gives way
Being one with the world
Heat
(I didn’t do this one, lol)
Edit
I bleed words onto paper
All the ones I’m too afraid
To say aloud
They flow like a river
An endless geyser
From a wound in my soul
But the same fear
That keeps the words
Dead in my mouth
Compels me to edit
To prune back
These words too
Some softly flutter
Into the wind
To be lost evermore
Most hang like an
Albatross at my neck
A mark of shame
Mottled
Shutter clicks
Film winds forward
Trees dressed in mottled autumn
Bottled for another day
Curve
Curve of tail
Trilling chirp
Cold paws
Warm purr
You wrapped around
My heart
And kept it beating
Your love
An imprint on my soul
Movement
My world had
Stopped
Its gears rusted
Shut
In permanent
Stasis
I hadn’t
Realized
Or perhaps
Care
Numb to my core
Frozen
Then I saw it
The stillness
In your home
A moment
Crystallized
Never to
Change
And suddenly
I gasped
Wind rushing
My lungs
Gentle breeze
Wiping
Cobwebs from my soul
You rest
Eternal
But your
Memory
Moves me
Ever forward
Ever changed
Figure
In the mirror
Is an imperfect me
Too short
Too thin
Too flat
Too few curves
I am not the porcelain doll
That others say
A woman should be
But when I look
I see something else
Too short
Too chubby
Too curvy
Too wide hips
I wish I could take
These imperfections of mine
And gift them to another
One whose body needs them
I am not a porcelain doll
I do not wish it
Do you?
Choice
In a yellow wood
Two paths
Diverged
But
Was it
Really a choice?
Glass
Sensitive
They called me
Empathetic
Kind
And watched me
Shatter
Over and over
In dozens of ways
Physical
Mental
Emotional
I am broken
Pieced back together
By my own will
With breath
And tears
And pain
Naive
They meant
Foolish
Delusional
But I will take these shards
These broken
Jagged
Pieces
They are mine
They are ours
They are more
Than the sum of their parts
They tried to shatter me
Like a pane of glass
They call me broken
And I used to think the same
But this is what they made me
Chipped away
Piece
By
Piece
No longer a pretty pane
But a jagged point
A lethal weapon
They could have had
That pretty glass
But they chose this instead
I am not broken
I am shaped
Not by a master’s hand
Nor by turbulent sea
Nor gentle waters
I am shattered
Shaped by hands
That wish harm
Upon me
They never thought
I would turn the point
Towards them instead
DPRSSN
Poetry is something I don't normally write off-the-cuff. Usually it bubbles up when the emotions get to be Too Much- which often means during Depression Hours. Here's a selection of things I've written while wallowing in the feels.
this little thing
I knew
it was a mistake
one I should have learned
ages and eons ago
I watched
over years
while
dust
drifted
caked
calcified
I saw it
shroud
everything
in a shell of
time
and
forgetfulness
I saw it bury
the box
packed and
wrapped
a lifetime ago
the final resting place for
a little thing
a little no’thing
it was not
grieved
it was not
missed
not noticed
I waited
in silence
with the box
and the
dust
as years
marched
relentlessly
my silent vigil
grew
transformed
from a transient plea
to a bleak statement
of fact
until I forgot
that I was waiting
at all
I felt
hands come
reaching
grasping
curious
by one
by two
by dozen
like Pandora
you found that box
you saw the shell of time
you read the warning
you cleared the dust
you pried it open
and looked inside
the box
crumbled
in those
myriad hands
your collective care
deforming
the rigid sides
irrevocably
I watched
horror
and
hope
pumping
drumming
racing
into
desiccated
veins
I watched
as you cradled
that little thing
in gentle hands
rough hands
warm hands
chilly hands
calloused hands
soft hands
I watched
you whisper
breath
ghosting
over
long
dead
flesh
the little thing
fluttered
moved by the
gentle cyclone
of your words
I watched
and an ache
built inside me
a quiet whisper
echoing
in the cavern
of my chest
warping
in that expanse
to become a roar
I watched
a scream
locked
behind my lips
lodged in my throat
its claws
tearing fresh wounds
in a place you can’t see
new damage
layered
upon old hurts
making
ugly scars
bleed
fresh
but you
oblivious
with childlike glee
you show me
that little thing
with its unsteady
quavering
beat
its little rhythm
an unsteady
staccato
I feel it
a long forgotten tune
every fiber of me
calls for it
pulses in that same
unsteady
tattoo
I watch
weighing your gift
against
my pain
you offer again
with a smile
a shy smile
a gentle smile
a coy smile
a cruel smile
I know
I could refuse
I could
take
that
wretched
little
THING
I could
shove it
into a
newer
better
box
I could
forget
that little thing
abandon it
like I did
before
I could
watch
again
as the
dust
settles
and
solidifies
I could
but
I know
from how
you cradle
that little thing
in your unsteady hands
how you care
for that little
broken
thing
I know
I can’t I deny you
when you look at me
with hope and love
and that smile
and those hands
I know
this will hurt
we will bleed
nothing will
ever
be the same
I know
this is a mistake
one I should have learned
ages and eons ago
I know
but I want
to try
Song Unsung
when i was a child
i would sing songs
some i knew
others i made up
some were told
by me alone
and others
were sung in chorus
as years rolled by
i learned new songs
found new voices
but the joy remained the same
but more years
tumbled in
and the songs
slowly
stopped
i still
hear them
sometimes
faint echoes
of the
epics
of my
childhood
i hold them
turn the phrases over
and over
in my mind
basking
in remembered
warmth
but gone
is the chorus
gone are the listeners
the sharers
my comrades
i try to sing
but
as my thin
wavering
voice
fails
in the
silence
that surrounds
i ask myself
what
is
this
for?
there are
no
listeners
not anymore
no one
to sing
with
so
why
waste
breath?
i don't
sing
anymore
the ache
still
too
fresh
after a
decade
alone
i live
with a
symphony
inside my head
a dozen
songs unsung
playing on
endless loop
behind
lips
sealed
shut
praying
that one day
i will forget
the notes
and melodies
what it felt like
to harmonize
maybe then
i could
open
my
mouth
without
a
song
on
my
lips
sorry (just deserts)
i bleed sorry
like a thick
viscous
sludge
it oozes
from wounds
of the soul
new
and
old
it weeps
from pores
on hands
face
chest
it streams
down
the crags
of my
face
it pours out
of my mouth
in a
gushing
flood
it's never enough
the deluge
pools
around me
thick
sticky
like glue
it holds
like amber
it traps
none of it matters
what's done
is
done
and these words
can't fix
something
that had been
crumbling
from the
start
i bleed sorry
ooze it
weep it
stream it
pour it
and now i am
dry
trapped
drowning
in the sludge
of sorry
i wish
that i could
reach
grasp
claw
do
anything
but inside me
is a barren waste
a space
void
of will
crushed
by the weight
of sorrys
and i
can't
so please
leave me
this place
is my
well
deserved
just
deserts